A new adventure in life

Life is full of adventures. Even though my life is busy and somewhat crazy I wouldn't trade it for the world. I may complain of pure exhaustion or frustration but I am so blessed for everything God has put in my life from the rough moments to the good ones. The rough ones especially have helped me become who I am. I am sitting here typing this feeling sicker and sicker every moment but pushing thru because I know I can and God is on my side! My kids may frustrate me but I LOVE having them with me. I LOVE being mom. This balancing act I call life right now is crazy but in a way fun. I rather live like this...on Gods terms, then the way I lived before. My thoughts are drawn to him but not in missing him or what that life was but the fantasy of what I was trying to accomplish and that my daughter only has me. I look at her and can't help but think of all that he is missing but so grateful that I'm here to enjoy every moment of it from the kisses, hugs, to the dancing at anything with a beat lol. She is truely my sunshine. All of my kids are really! My boys are so sweet...at times. Matthew has been helping me a few nights by giving his sister a bath while I clean without me even having to ask. Michael will circulate laundry for me without having to remind him (sometimes). They both have such a good heart and I am so blessed that God gave them to me.

Tomorrow I start my new part time job at O'Briens on the boardwalk. It's 2-3 shifts a week as a server. I went and applied for my ABO license and got a temp one for now. I have never been a server and I am a little nervous about it. I think I have the personality for it. I am def a people person. I love interacting with people. I need the money to help take care of the kids and I want to keep the boys after this summer so doing what I have to do. I'm so grateful for the friends and practically family that are willing to help me out so I can do this. I just can't tell you how blessed I feel. I know God's hands are on me and my family and without him truly NOTHING is possible.

In less than 2 weeks I turn 30 and in 2 weeks Michael turns 10. We are all growing up. I'd say we were growing up fast but sadly I think it's taken me longer to get to this point than it should have lol. I had to hit my head on that same brick wall for over 5 yrs before I FINALLY realized that my kids and I deserve so much more....God wants more for us and I didn't have to live in pain and torment. God helps me every day deal with everything that I've endured throughout the years. I'm very grateful that he pulled me thru it mostly intact...both physically and mentally.

So....overall, about to start a new adventure in life, both with starting life in my 30's and starting a new part time job....and everything else God is doing in my life! God Bless!!