Feeling a lot of anxiety

Lately I have been feeling a lot of anxiety. It's quickly becoming time that I have to act and no longer sit on the sidelines and hope that things will just fall into place. Many things in my life I have to either get the ball running or finish the race, no matter if I'm gonna win or not. I can't procrasinate any longer. I know that's where my anxiety is coming from. It's not that I don't trust that God will see me thru or that I won't heal from all that I'm about to endure but just knowing that I have to endure it still is quite unsettling. I made comparison to a little kid about to get a spanking. Now, they know it won't hurt forever and that (for the most part) their parent (or whomever) still loves them but when they know it's coming they still have the anxiety of having to go thru it. That's the way I feel and I wish it could be as easy as that- so I can get over it quick but I know better. There is no bandaid way to deal with this. Thank God he is letting me know that so I don't sell part of my soul for that numbing feeling that many people seek out.

I'm so familiar with the notion that the decisions you make today will impact you tomorrow. My whole life has been like that. I can see the glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel but I can't figure out how long it will take me to get there. As long as I'm moving towards it I know I will get there in God's timing.