My husband

Those words I doubted I'd ever hear again but here I am planning the rest of my life with the most perfect man for me.  I love him on such a deep, complete, and total level.  I never in my wildest dreams knew I had it in me to love like I love him.  I find myself loving every aspect of who he is and relishing in the amazing feeling he gives me.  I forgive huge transgressions so much easier than I ever have.  I found the positive of my hurt.  Who does that except a person that is so full of real and pure love.  That's the only explanation I have for why I love him through it.  I build him up while I hurt.  And I really love it.  I love him being the man I know he is.  And I love helping him see what I see in him.  He really is my soulmate. I'm so blessed to ever have this feeling.  But to be his wife and him by husband is beyond beautiful. I can't wait to be with him forever. I am so excited about our future because the power that comes with true love is so empowering.

Appreciation

It's such a wonderful thing to really love and appreciate who a person is...not who you want them to be or who they are pretending to be.  To be able to be yourself without someone trying to change you or belittle you is so freeing.  When everyone has treated you so bad all your life it feels so amazing to be looked at and treated like you are the most beautiful, wonderful person in the world. To truly be liked as a person and friend instead of tolerated touches your heart in such an amazing way.

Ready for forever after

I can pretend or act tough all I want but the truth remains I am his.  My mind body and soul are connected to him on such an amazing level.  I sit back and think of where we started and where we are at now and knowing without a doubt how much more mind blowing we will be when finally given the opportunity to truly be together.
I know God is testing my ability to lean on him and trust in his timing. And i have to admit it's so hard to do most of the time.  When you found the person that takes you to a place you never knew existed it's so hard not to want your forever after to begin. 
It's not just the love I have for him... it's the friendship the loyalty the trust that is equally amazing. The way he makes me feel about myself is wonderful.  My entire life I've been put down on every level imaginable. He builds me up and shows me how special I am.  So much I actually believe it some of the time.  It's an incredible feeling to be with someone and be confident and comfortable with no insecurities. I never knew that feeling existed.
He is truly amazing and I need to be more understanding of the stress he's going thru and help him thru it instead of adding to it. I may not like the timing of everything so far but God knows what he's doing....he always does.  And it's time I have trust in God. He has never failed me and I know he won't now.  I know God brought him back to me to finally show me what love is supposed to be. To tell me I deserve more than I've ever settled for. Now I just have to have patience for the pieces to fall into place.  I'm so ready for my forever after with the person I know is meant for me. Like I told him earlier I love him enough to go the bad and the amazing.  We are amazing together.  The drama...this too shall pass and an awesome future awaits us that I know will be better than anything we could ever imagine. 

The one

Without a doubt I know God intended him for me.  I've never experienced something that felt so right...so perfect.  I love us so much.  I never get enough and I can feel even when we grow old I'm still going to complain I didn't have enough time with him.  My heart and soul are tied to him.  I've never in my life felt so amazing and wonderful.  I have truly sold myself short for all of my life. I still can't believe that he is mine and this is my life. I never knew I could feel the way I do when I'm with him.  He really is my best friend and holds a part of me always.  I love that he is opening up and showing me how he feels because it just makes me love and adore him more.  Our relationship is epic and we have merely begun.  Can't wait until we are together in every sense of the word.  We will continue to take each other to greater heights showing the other how much we love them.  It's a competition I can stand behind and it's fun.  We are both givers...something unheard of in this day. 

Full of choices

There is so much in my life I have no control over.  I've been told control is just an illusion but I've always had a sense of direction disguised as control.  It's took me so long in my life to know what i want and waiting for God's timing is so hard. 

But it perplexes me how the person that can make me feel complete and the happiest I've ever been in life can also be the one that make me miserable and disappointed. I thought I finally found the person who loves me like I love him.  When I'm with him I believe it but he doesn't act like it when I'm not there.  I just don't understand.  I can't picture my future without him but when will that future start? I sacrifice so much to have him and I question what sacrifices he makes.  I try so hard and I just wish he would instead of taking me and my loyalty for granted. 

Amazing

I've discovered there isn't enough words in the English language to describe how he makes me feel. I'm so happy with him.  I really never knew it could feel so damn right....so perfect. Being with him is easy. Our situation is hard but Everytime I'm with him my mind is blown. Every touch every kiss ignites a passion in me i didn't know existed. We have so much fun together and I can't wait until we can share so much more.  My God what did I do to deserve the perfect man for me?  I'm so grateful and blessed in life.  I love him so completely and totally...I am his and he is mine.  We are so awesome together.  I love us. 

He is such a wonderful person.  I swoon inside with every little thing he does to show me how much he loves me. I love being with him.  It's the only time in life I'm truly happy and content and safe.  I love hearing and seeing how being with him affects him.  I love that I have the same affect on him.  I always want to take away his stress and worry. I love seeing him happy.

Love always

I can't say it enough or think of any more ways I can show my love for him.  Right now life sucks on such a grand scale...and I still can't think of anything but being with him.  I'm so ready for our life together to begin.  Yes we are together but not in the same sense. I want to be by his side.  I want to fall asleep with him every night and wake up to the love of my life every morning.  Every experience in life I want to share with him. I don't know if he realizes how much I value every call he makes....every text I get.  I swear it's what keeps me as sane as i can be. I've never had to go thru so much turmoil and drama and stress but i know in my heart he is worth it. I don't see anyone but him forever.  He is my everything...my love...my future of happiness and adoration. He is and has always been my soul mate...the one that completes me. How on God's earth could I ever walk away from that?