Appreciation

It's such a wonderful thing to really love and appreciate who a person is...not who you want them to be or who they are pretending to be.  To be able to be yourself without someone trying to change you or belittle you is so freeing.  When everyone has treated you so bad all your life it feels so amazing to be looked at and treated like you are the most beautiful, wonderful person in the world. To truly be liked as a person and friend instead of tolerated touches your heart in such an amazing way.

Ready for forever after

I can pretend or act tough all I want but the truth remains I am his.  My mind body and soul are connected to him on such an amazing level.  I sit back and think of where we started and where we are at now and knowing without a doubt how much more mind blowing we will be when finally given the opportunity to truly be together.
I know God is testing my ability to lean on him and trust in his timing. And i have to admit it's so hard to do most of the time.  When you found the person that takes you to a place you never knew existed it's so hard not to want your forever after to begin. 
It's not just the love I have for him... it's the friendship the loyalty the trust that is equally amazing. The way he makes me feel about myself is wonderful.  My entire life I've been put down on every level imaginable. He builds me up and shows me how special I am.  So much I actually believe it some of the time.  It's an incredible feeling to be with someone and be confident and comfortable with no insecurities. I never knew that feeling existed.
He is truly amazing and I need to be more understanding of the stress he's going thru and help him thru it instead of adding to it. I may not like the timing of everything so far but God knows what he's doing....he always does.  And it's time I have trust in God. He has never failed me and I know he won't now.  I know God brought him back to me to finally show me what love is supposed to be. To tell me I deserve more than I've ever settled for. Now I just have to have patience for the pieces to fall into place.  I'm so ready for my forever after with the person I know is meant for me. Like I told him earlier I love him enough to go the bad and the amazing.  We are amazing together.  The drama...this too shall pass and an awesome future awaits us that I know will be better than anything we could ever imagine.