Planning my future

I know I'm supposed to let God have control of my life but that doesn't mean sitting back and waiting for God to do it all. I have to take responsibility for my actions and what my life is- the beauty of free will. As of right now I have a rough 6 month plan. Hopefully I'm able to accomplish it all in 6 months. There seems to be a lot that I have to go thru before I get to the other side but I have a feeling the breath of fresh air from a new beginning will be worth it.

I can hardly wait to see God work in my life. The pure freedom to follow him and have what he wants me to have is going to be great. At first I was really mourning the loss of my old life- all the dreams and plans for it, but I'm realizing God has a better plan for me than I could have ever had for myself. I may be making plans but I'm including God in all of them. Life is truely easier without openly disobeying him. I know everything I have gone thru was him bringing me closer to him. He protected me thru it all but he was determined to teach me- the same we do with our kids.

Needing people

I mentioned this the other night and was told I should blog about it. Before I wanted to blog on it I wanted to ponder the idea a little more to see if other people could see other angles. Of course not everyone will agree with me. I feel like you shouldn't "need" people....like life or death need. Of course you want people and feel better with certain people but they should not be what sustains you. The only thing you should need is God. People come and go in our life. They disappoint us at times, hurt us, make us cry. It's just in their nature sometimes....they are not perfect. Only one is....God. That's why we only NEED him.

Family

Growing up we think whatever we are subject to is the norm. Only when we grow older and look back do we realize how unnormal it all is. This makes life increasingly difficult to appreciate the really normal things. I am amazed all the time how God is showing me what is normal and healthy and putting my whole life in perspective. i can't help but smile when I see my daughter with her pseudo-grandparents.She loves them and they truly love her. I never grew up with grandparents so it's really a treat to see them interact and I know how blessed I am to have them in my life. They are not only their for my daughter when her blood family isn't but they are there for me regardless of the decisions that I make. I'm not blood but I may as well be. In all honesty they are a big reason why I don't want to move out of the area (even tho it's pretty appealing at times). It's funny to me in an ironic way since I left FL to get away from my mother. So.....you can't pick your family BUT I think we found a loophole! :)